Hope is a paper boat that sinks, isn't it sad?

Hello,
 
I w as looking back on my memories,and felt like making a set. I actually miss this stuff haha. But it would've been impossible for me to keep up with it this past year, since I've just completed Year 12.
I miss all my friends from here /cry
 

Take care everyone, who knows when I'll stop by next!

wow
I haven't been on polyvore in over 6+ months
 
just made a set to say that I never use this but you can talk to me on tumblr or twitter anytime.
 
loverocketsuicide.tumblr.com
 
to be honest I kind of miss this ^^
\lol/
 
annyeong.

Hello by YUI (Paradise Kiss)
No-one can fathom the time I wasted trying to find this song after hearing it on my favorite K-drama. It turns out that it was a Japanese song made for a totally unrelated movie, which coincidentally I was planning to watch and did in fact see last night.
 
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YES~~~
I AM OFFICIALLY ON SUMMER HOLIDAYS GUYS
well technically I finished on Friday last week but I just got around to making a set (shame on me, cough I mean filling out a template *shame shame* *embarrassment embarrassment*) and well I finished Year 11 and I now have 2 months SCHOOL FREE HECK YEAH~
 
On a totally unrelated note,
so excited for the release of 2PM's Japanese album, Republic of 2PM. The teaser is killing me.
This set has my main biases, Khunnie ♥, Junsu and Taec.
 
also had an icon change~
though I don't think anyone even views my profile anymore.
 

I also just spent about 2 hours watching the last half of the MAMA's
CONGRATULATIONS BIGBANG AND 2NE1!
OMO. I'm still reeling over the fact that SNSD DIDN'T DESERVE A SINGLE REWARD, YEST STILL MANAGED TO REAP IN LIKE 3 but hey, y'know that's life.
Still YG Stans we have the victory of Bigbang beating Justin Biebz AND Lady GaGa as well as the rest of the well-known Hollywood celebs in the EMA's and 2NE1 winning MTV Iggy Best Band in the World.
 

well I'm very beat~
I exercised for almost an hour yesterday, where I did 25 minutes of dancing, 15 minutes of weights, 10 minutes on the NTC App and 5 on the elliptical machine. So now my arm/shoulder/leg muscles kill like hell, even though I warmed up. But hey who's complaining since there was progress of 1kg in one day and I now have slight hints of toned biceps lol~
 

ok i'm rambling
well back to narnia (tumblr) for me.
laters guise, and remember you can still pm me or comment here, I do check my inbox and comments :3

me: beautiful with lavender coloured hair.
where: new york city.
he: james mcavoy, doesn't need further explanation does it? just that he is dsggsadgsdgs so freaking SEXY ♥
enemy: the hoar who used to go out with james.
girl loses boy: catch him cheating with that hoar ex of his. he's sorry, i'm not. ditch him like a bad habit, but on the inside... dying.
what i do to be happy: realise he's an a-hole only after wallowing in misery for 3 months so i relocate to seoul, south korea where i meet...
circumstantial happening: meet t.o.p in seoul where we hit it off which leads to...
happy ending: we get married and live happily ever after ♥
 
~
 
it's no wonder i'm a great storyteller.
and so imaginative.
not a day goes past that i don't wish my life was different somehow.
 
oh and icon change, again.
to the gorgeous claudio marchisio <3
i tag whoever wants a happy ending :3 (haha try and beat that one)

stereo hearts; gym class heroes ft. adam levine.
I only heard this song about 5 minutes ago and i'm completely obsessed.
 
adam levine's voice is *drools*
HEYLO (that's how my friend says hi, we always tease her about it)
I really like this set :)
first good set in like months, seriously.
 
So today is the first day of holidays for us in Australia
too bad it's only two weeks long |:
geez.
I can tell they're going to reallly boringgggggg.
But these holidays I have a purpose.
 
I plan on losing at least 5 kg's or so in two weeks so when summer rolls around I wont regret it, as always.
I get alot of thinspiration from tumblr and have my own thinspo blog as well, vesselof84lbs.tumblr.com
 
so, my stats are:
Height: 5'3/160 cm
Starting Weight: 117 lbs/53 kg
Highest Weight: 121 lbs/55 kgs
Lowest Weight: 112 lbs/51 kgs
Current Weight: 117 lbs/53.3 kg
GW1: 111 lbs/50 kg
GW2: 106 lbs/48 kg
GW3: 99 lbs/45 kg
GW4: 96 lbs/ 44.5 kg
GW5: 93 lbs/42 kg
UGW1: 90 lbs/40 kg
UGW2: 84 lbs/38.0 kg
I know I'm gonna get a lot of shit for this but to be honest I'm not doing it the healthy way. I just can't stand looking at my body the way it is now. There's all this stomach flab and massive thighs.
Y'know this year I've gained quite alot of weight. I was on mynetdiary.com and my previous weight used to be 49 kg's. That's when realisation hit. I've literally gained 4 kgs over the course of six months. What happened to the days when I was a little 45 kg girl. Under all that flab, that's where.
This will all change, it has to.
So I'm sticking to 500 calories a day (these can only be low calorie foods, no processed food), 1 hour workout WITHOUT FAIL and hopefully I'll at least get down to about 45 kgs by the time school starts.
(I realise that 38 kgs is a little low, and hard to reach, but that is my ultimate ultimate goal weight).
 
(GW stands for goal weight
and UGW is ultimate goal weight.)
 
tips? comments?
all welcome.
x

i can; blue.
this song is the uk's entry for eurovision.
pretty good actually, better than turkey's at least.
 
mesut ozil.
it's been ages since I've made a set of him aye.
god I want to meet him so much,
he makes me proud to be a turk.
 
guys, I have a problem.
the last time I went out with friends and shiiz,
my friend borrowed my leather jacket which had my razors in a box, in the pocket.
my friend forgot to give the jacket back to me, and I hope to god she hasn't looked in the pocket because how are you emant to explain it (?)
BUT I NEED THEM BACK, LIKE RIGHT NOW.
GAH.
 
but I'm serious.
you can admit it you know.
yes, I am suicidal.
yes your best friend, daughter, close friend, whatever
thinks of suicide.
you know, no one 'cept my best friend knows this but...
3 days ago I very nearly did it.
I was so close. so freaking close.
how did it get to this?
it's just one main reason is that I am just fuck.ing sick of feeling like shit 99.9 % of the time.
and all I do is moan about like a bit.ch.
maybe I should just do it//

who dat girl; flo rida ft. akon
still listening to this song, and still love it.
akon and flo rida in one song = amazingness.
enough said.
 
ARSENAL FC YO.
I wasn't in the mood of making a proper set,
and was on tumblr, stalking and reblogging Arsenal pictures LOL.
so I made a set.
there isn't any or much arsenal fans here on polyvore; tumblr has tons.
and so there's no-one I can talk to about arsenal here.
even at school bro; most of the girls couldn't care less about uk football teams.
but my english teacher is a die hard arsenal fan and the guys in our class go of rman utd and chelsea so we're always arguing during class.
everyone else is just talking in their own world.
our english lessons are so 'laxed.
ANYWAY;
ARSENAL FC IS THE BEST TEAM ON THE ENTIRE FACE OF THIS PLANET.
NUFF SAID.
 
bye-bye.
these days it's practically the only thing that makes me genuinely happy.
watch this set get like, zero faves lulz).

cut; plumb.
I've been listening to this song over and over for the past couple of nights & it's beautiful.
 
herp de derp, new set.
I like this set, it took me a while to make it.
I got inspired & felt like creating.
and I love the pictures in it, like the 2'nd one on the top left corner.
and of course the ones of tom felton and james franco.
sigh, I love my wayfarer-ray-ban-wearing guys ;) ♥
 
P. Sherman 42 Wallaby Way, Sydney.
You know I have that address memorised.
that and my own address.
it's from Nemo, my favourite animated movie hehe.
 
"Hell is empty, and all the devils are here"
William Shakespeare: The Tempest.
I love that quote.
 
My arm actually does hurt.
it's this cluster of cuts, that I did last night in bed.
oh and I told my best friend about it and about seeing a shrink.
yup.
 
so, I'll be here if ya need me.
just hit me up, comment here or pm me,
I feel like watching vampire diaries.
laters yo.

wonderland; natalia kills.
THIS SONG IS SHAMAZING. LISTEN TO IT.
 
this is wierd.
just some random light leak pictures.
it all started with that first top left corner one.
yeah
oh I broke my streak.
after 35 days clean, it all went out just with one little cut.
I just couldn't take it.

 
you know I'd really like to believe that there's someone on here who cares about me so much,
who cares if whether I'm still alive or not, or frankly just worries about me.
But I know it's too much to ask for and yes, I don't deserve it.
After all I am nobody.
And no one cares, even myself.
What hurts most is that people spend so much time trying to convince you they do,
when it's all just aload of bullsh.it.
I'm done.

words I never said; lupe fiasco ft. skylar gray.
I am in love with this song. the lyrics are so powerful.
lupe speaks the truth, seriously.
did you know lupe is actually muslim?
you learn something everyday :D
 
I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence.
fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth.
so scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you.
sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to.
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you.
consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few.
my screams are finally getting free, my thoughts are finally yelling through.
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I've been working on this set since last night.
started at like 10.30, my net stuffed up so i went to bed at like 1.30.
then this morning started it over again, and this is the end result.
I gotta say, I love it.
it's the first set since like forever, that I actually truly like.
 
home again today.
this week I'm going to go to school on consecutive days muahahahahaha.
well i'm meant to stay home, but since it's year eleven and I missed out on a whole weeks work already,
I thought about it and decided to at least try.
 
soooooooooooooo.
I really like that pink flower.
it keeps distracting me. I forgot what I was going to write; geez.
oh my god finally vampire diaries are back on air this week!
ABOUT TIME CW! |:
also after logging in this morning I checked my inbox and there was this:
do you wanna kick it in the backseat.
made my freaking day :D.
[if you don't get what i'm talking about check out my collection 'all the little things'.]
 
type "ed westwick is a dream" if you read all this.
x